Angel sat quietly with the gauze pulled tight in his hands as he listened to Alastor's answer. At first he was going to tease Al for not watchin' porn but this was probably the most the host had opened up about it himself. It didn't feel right to tear that down. Suddenly he was struck with how ridiculous he was dressed. But hey! He didn't regret it. He made a sexy ass nurse.
"No, I get you. I may not understand all of your reasons behind it but I feel you." Angel shook his head, casting down his eyes. "I'm the complete 180 from you. Touch is cheap. I can touch just about anyone without any meain' behind it. Hell, I've even slept with women and they do nothin' for me. Most of my relationships only run skin deep. You can't get hurt if ya don't have feelings and a shit ton of drugs to lube you up. Emotional connections have always fucked with me. Even back when I was alive, I was close with my family until they found out I liked men. Blood is thicker than water my ass. And the first time I fall in love its with a manipulative limp dick moth who uses me as his gilded blowup doll. So yeah... When I feel myself getting too close to people I self sabotage our relationship or turn tail and run. How can I be with someone if I can't give them all of me? Despite what you might think about me, sex isn't what makes a relationship. Its just one part. Granted a really fun part."
There was a pause as he lets out a long sigh and beneath his white fur, there was a touch of scarlet that flooded his cheeks. "I... I don't want to do that to you. I... almost did run away. But I want to open myself up to you like I don't do for just anyone. I might be stupid and I'm going to get myself hurt but fuck it. I... I couldn't sleep with Husk. And its all your fucking fault. All I could think about was you. How it wasn't you. How I wished it was you. How I wanted you to want me like that. I'm not expectign' ya to do anything. Just when you were away I knew if I didn't tell ya what I was felling and you died, I would regret keepin' my big mouth shut. Al... I... like you. I really like you."
The scarlet color burned brighter as it traveled down his neck. Ripping the gauze off the roll, the spider stuffed the loose end down the front to free up his hands as he toss them up cursing loudly.
"Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!" Angel spun around on his seat to give Alastor his back, but the redness seared the back of his neck as he buried his face in his hands. Spilling his guts like that and confusing his feelings wasn't how he saw today going, but here the fuck they were!
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"No, I get you. I may not understand all of your reasons behind it but I feel you." Angel shook his head, casting down his eyes. "I'm the complete 180 from you. Touch is cheap. I can touch just about anyone without any meain' behind it. Hell, I've even slept with women and they do nothin' for me. Most of my relationships only run skin deep. You can't get hurt if ya don't have feelings and a shit ton of drugs to lube you up. Emotional connections have always fucked with me. Even back when I was alive, I was close with my family until they found out I liked men. Blood is thicker than water my ass. And the first time I fall in love its with a manipulative limp dick moth who uses me as his gilded blowup doll. So yeah... When I feel myself getting too close to people I self sabotage our relationship or turn tail and run. How can I be with someone if I can't give them all of me? Despite what you might think about me, sex isn't what makes a relationship. Its just one part. Granted a really fun part."
There was a pause as he lets out a long sigh and beneath his white fur, there was a touch of scarlet that flooded his cheeks. "I... I don't want to do that to you. I... almost did run away. But I want to open myself up to you like I don't do for just anyone. I might be stupid and I'm going to get myself hurt but fuck it. I... I couldn't sleep with Husk. And its all your fucking fault. All I could think about was you. How it wasn't you. How I wished it was you. How I wanted you to want me like that. I'm not expectign' ya to do anything. Just when you were away I knew if I didn't tell ya what I was felling and you died, I would regret keepin' my big mouth shut. Al... I... like you. I really like you."
The scarlet color burned brighter as it traveled down his neck. Ripping the gauze off the roll, the spider stuffed the loose end down the front to free up his hands as he toss them up cursing loudly.
"Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!" Angel spun around on his seat to give Alastor his back, but the redness seared the back of his neck as he buried his face in his hands. Spilling his guts like that and confusing his feelings wasn't how he saw today going, but here the fuck they were!